Letters to Finley: One year ago today my life changed forever, but I wouldn't know it for eight more days....

When we first met you were smaller than this 

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Just a couple of cells, containing your soul. 

Parts and pieces bound together that would make me whole. 

So small I just had to believe you were really there... 

Hope of you so big, it restricted my air. 

A 15 minute procedure and an hour lying upside down in a bed.  

Thoughts of you consumed my head. 

An optimistic, but realistic doctor gave me the facts. 

I held my breath and tried to relax. 

I prayed, I whispered to you, I willed you to "stick." 

I envisioned being pregnant and feeling you kick. 

 I fought off all negative thoughts that invaded. 

And then I waited, and waited and waited.......