Pressure of Perfection:

Ever since Finley was born I have had this overwhelming feeling of trying to capture and document everything  perfectly.  Perfectly is where I am getting hung up and is causing this crazy, no good, unnecessary anxiety. I am so inspired by other beautiful blogs, but that inspiration turns to frustration when I realize I don't always have the skills to match my vision.  I am a visual person and I look at everything in my life as a blank canvas. Everything.  I can't just do I have to do perfectly and when I can't get it perfect I get discouraged and frustrated (cue crazy,no good, unnecessary anxiety). I want gorgeous pictures to go along with all of the wonderful daily happenings, but I am a total beginner when it comes to photography. I am learning as fast as I can, but as I learn I feel like time is slipping away and well Finley isn't always in the most photogenic moods....


I think the real root of this feeling though is that I am just scared.  I am scared that I might only be able to live this dream once and that it is going to go too fast.  She will only be little for so long and I want to make sure that I capture every moment, since this minute, hour, day won't last.  Not sure how to shake this feeling....but here is what I think will help.  I make lots of rules for myself and one of the rules that I made up was that each blog post had to have a picture.  While I still think pictures are super important for preserving memories, so are words.  I am going to try to post everyday, even if it is only one sentence and even if there isn't a picture to go along.  I know a year from now I will appreciate reading about our time together.  I know I will post more if the pressure is off for each post to be perfect.


Deep breath.  Here's what I have concluded. Time is going to go on as it always has, Fin is going to grow, but instead of dreading, worrying and stressing about it, I am going to enjoy each minute and record each day right here.

All you need for baby is love and a strappy thing.

When it came to buying the essential baby items, I found the list to be really, really long.  There is so much gear that Babies R Us thinks baby needs.  Bouncy seats, swings, strollers, pack and plays, those things that you put baby in with the overload of sensory toys, etc.  I have found that all you really need is something to strap baby on to you (okay and maybe diapers).  That's where she wants to be. All of those other things are made to make baby forget that she isn't being held.  Finley loves, loves, loves this carrier and so do I.  I can snuggle with her and have my hands free to work around the house.