Pressure of Perfection:

Ever since Finley was born I have had this overwhelming feeling of trying to capture and document everything  perfectly.  Perfectly is where I am getting hung up and is causing this crazy, no good, unnecessary anxiety. I am so inspired by other beautiful blogs, but that inspiration turns to frustration when I realize I don't always have the skills to match my vision.  I am a visual person and I look at everything in my life as a blank canvas. Everything.  I can't just do I have to do perfectly and when I can't get it perfect I get discouraged and frustrated (cue crazy,no good, unnecessary anxiety). I want gorgeous pictures to go along with all of the wonderful daily happenings, but I am a total beginner when it comes to photography. I am learning as fast as I can, but as I learn I feel like time is slipping away and well Finley isn't always in the most photogenic moods....


I think the real root of this feeling though is that I am just scared.  I am scared that I might only be able to live this dream once and that it is going to go too fast.  She will only be little for so long and I want to make sure that I capture every moment, since this minute, hour, day won't last.  Not sure how to shake this feeling....but here is what I think will help.  I make lots of rules for myself and one of the rules that I made up was that each blog post had to have a picture.  While I still think pictures are super important for preserving memories, so are words.  I am going to try to post everyday, even if it is only one sentence and even if there isn't a picture to go along.  I know a year from now I will appreciate reading about our time together.  I know I will post more if the pressure is off for each post to be perfect.


Deep breath.  Here's what I have concluded. Time is going to go on as it always has, Fin is going to grow, but instead of dreading, worrying and stressing about it, I am going to enjoy each minute and record each day right here.